I've had a isolating concept in my head for the past 10 years or so, I don't know for certain when it started appearing in my head but the 10 year mark seems roughly correct. I've called it "The Hole", which is exactly what it is. An endless, circular pit that leads into a shadowed void. The pit itself is surrounded by a thick, black fog that sits on decaying concrete. I sometimes to go to this place when I'm suffering, and when I do I'm always sitting on the edge of the pit with my legs dangling off the side, my heels gently kicking the walls of the hole. Sometimes it's not only my body in this space, sometimes I'll envision my best friend sat next to me. Though they never appear to be in the same headspace as me when I'm there, they're comforting and soothing, almost like they're gently trying to pull me away from the pit. Like I said, I'm not really sure when this concept began or even why it did. Not to compare suffering but I don't think my ailments are as bad as other people's, so I'm not fully certain as to why I've generated this space.
I've been through a shitty time recently and I figured that putting some of that energy into artistic spaces would be a good outlet. "The Hole" has never had a concrete, physical representation, it's always been a mental space. I've made a VRChat world that encompases what "The Hole" is, to give it a physical copy. I've never been great at opening up to friends, so maybe this can also serve as a way to show other aspects of myself. Either way, I've worked super hard on this VRChat world, making sure to get the representation and themes correct and support them rightfully with the art direction. The lighting and texture selection plays a huge part in designing the space, trying to make it feel as cold and isolating as it felt in my head. There's also an added "Memories" section that serves as a way to peek back into memories I wish to keep and cherish, though obfsucated due to viewing them while in this space. Outside of "The Hole", these memories are crystal clear, but inside they're muted and hollow.
I've linked the world below, so if you've been reading this post and want to view it then feel free to check it out. Cheers very much :)